Unconditional
I have had several people tell me I should have more kids because I don’t get sick when I am pregnant, and that I need to bring more souls into a loving home with the advantage of the gospel. Then there are those who are shocked at the amount of children I do have. Sure, I could have more, we could live in a smaller house, in a less expensive community. We can afford the kids just fine. Then there are those that point out just about how much one kid puts you out until they are out of college–yikes! Sure, I could probably do it physically, I am only 33, and people are now having kids in their 40’s! I already have stretch marks galore, what’s a few more? I absolutely love babies, as most of you know, I can’t get enough of them. I love all children, especially my own, it is very fun to see how they come out with both Jeremy and me in them–a true miracle, and testament that God exists.
However, perhaps the people who urge me to have a gaggle of children have not gone through the teenage years, or have any of their children go astray from the gospel, or exercise their own free will and struggle in this life? It’s a hard thing to be a parent. I can’t handle the emotional strength it takes to raise four, much less any more! It’s a hard thing to care for someone with every fiber of your being and to want them to be safe, to will them to seek good choices and to want to be happy, and do the things that bring that happiness and peace.
I don’t claim to be close to being like our Father in Heaven, but I think I know why He loves us so unconditionally even though we are retards most of the time. We are His children. I love my children just like He loves us. I can’t explain it. Even when they make questionable choices, I still love them, I love them even more…is that weird? It is heart breaking and gut wrenching to see them struggle. We can only teach them what is right, and silently pray that they will choose happiness in the end. It is a tough world out there, but I am glad God is on my side.
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